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Thursday, July 18, 2024

Inspiration and Futility, Alternating Between the Poles - A Reflection on the Creative Spirit


This essay is an examination of the role inspiration has played in my creative life: it is the testimonial of a poet, a thinker and an academic. It is a reflection on the ontology of inspiration, revealing how the natural liability to be inspired is an inherent feature of the human experience, an indelible aspect of our existence, and a constitutional element of our being.

Inspiration is multi-faceted, like a gemstone.

This essay will address four facets of the inspired state:

 

1.     The moment of inspiration

2.     The object of inspiration

3.     The content of inspiration

4.     The inspired expression.

 

It will treat what it means to be inspired.

 

Let me say this from the outset:

 

Because I do not wish to engender the misperception that my creative-life has been an extended moment of awe, mystery and transcendence (it has not). Because I do not wish to give that impression, this essay will also present a discussion of my struggles with the flip-side of inspiration, the pervasive sense that my creative output is little more than an exercise in vanity, manifesting itself as a sense of futile self-absorption, a negativism that has dogged me with a cynical-zeal throughout the whole of my life.

           

In speaking of my experience, let me also say this:

 

I have a sharp sense for the inspired moment, at least I believe I do. I have sense enough to know that inspired moments come in many ways, they can be charming like the quarks of sub-atomica: they may be strange and they be fuzzy, they are quirky and unpredictable.

The inspired moment is attractive and alluring.

Inspiration begins with catalysis.

I cannot list all of the multifarious, multi-valenced agents that have excited the many different templates at the core of my creative drive...but, when the elements come together and the proper catalyst is present, among the disparate experiences of things and beings that constitute the enduring track of my life, a change takes place. In those moments, when memory interacts with the immediacy of consciousness, and the whole experience is informed by the senses…in real-time, it is in that moment of concrescence that relationships become apparent that had never been discerned before, and then like alchemy or a flash in the pan!...wham!...there is a new creation! 

When the creative spirit comes, we feel its gravity, like a singularity forming. We may attenuate ourselves to its frequency, listen and watch while it warps time and space around it. We may relinquish all resistance and allow ourselves to be drawn into its mass.

It is in this space with the light of the cosmos bending around it, that the path toward the realization of our creative ambitions becomes clear.

It is here where the plan is formed, when the will becomes fixed on a specific set of steps; it is then that the creative endeavor begins, the action commences like the choreography of a dance. This is the inspired state of being, when burgeoning insight is precipitously balanced with the readiness to act.

These moments come to all of us. We sense them long before they arrive; it is wise to seize these moments, dwell within them, to linger in their space for a while.

 

Understand this!

 

True inspiration is more than a feeling.

 

When the inspired moment comes, it comes with content, it is the spark that becomes a flame, that illuminates and enlightens, like a flare in the dark whose sudden eruption clarifies the world around us, points out the way before us...calling us to move toward a specific end.

In that moment when the inspired content springs to mind, it is like that brief look you are allowed of the image you are trying to construct from a jig-saw puzzle. 

You have a moment with the image, you hold it in your mind...then you are left with piles of pieces spread out on the table before you, and the task of putting it all together, with only the memory of that glimpse-of-a-vision to guide you.

The inspired moment is more than a feeling, it is more than awe, it is more than a sense of mystery and transcendence; but feeling is an essential part of it and the inspired feeling is rarely a tepid one.

 

Inspiration is light; yes, but not without heat.

Inspiration is hot with imperative, with the command to do: to write, to stand, to move, to sing.

Inspiration is observable in the germination of a seed, fully formed in its flower and expressed completely in its fruit.

Inspiration is a force, it is shocking and dynamic.

 

Allow me to be literal for a moment, and say this: 

 

Inspiration is the movement of the spirit within us, enlivening and vivifying our deepest self, it is as much a part of us as the air we breathe…we live to be inspired.

 

Inspiration is as the lexicon says:

 

“Divine guidance or influence exerted directly on the soul of humankind."[1]

 

Therefore, to speak of inspiration in all of its parts, in all of its facets, is somewhat artificial, perhaps impossible, as if when speaking of a wave you can name its peak and its trough, without acknowledging that the two are essentially one—alternating…changing mode of being.

 

Be mindful.

 

The inspired moment must be followed by a genuine enthusiasm for the work that lies ahead of it…enthusiasm, another word that connotes the indwelling of the divine and creative spirit within us.[2]

When the inspired moment comes we must make room in our hearts, allowing it to live within us. We must receive it enthusiastically,[3] or it will wither and die.

Inspiration comes in the form of a personal experience, it comes into the real lives of real people, like an encounter with the deity, or whatever gods may be. And though inspiration comes upon us with great power, it is nevertheless subject to the cares and concerns of the person to whom it is present. Therefore, the inspired moment must be cared for, like any other thing, added to the list of concerns that we manage day to day, as human beings.

It is in that place, somewhere between the heart and the head, a place which in Hebrew is called nephesh, the throat, but which also means soul and refers to the place where sentience dwells; it is from there, in the nephesh, that the spirit ruha emanates. It is then when our breath finds its voice and we speak, that we add our distinctiveness to the wind.

 

Consider the wisdom of Brenda Ueland:

 

Inspiration does not (in fact) come like a bolt, nor is it kinetic, energetic striving but it comes to us slowly and quietly all of the time. But we must regularly and every day give it a chance to start flowing, and prime it with a little solitude and idleness. I learned that when writing you should not feel like Lord Byron on a mountaintop, but like a child stringing beads in kindergarten – happy, absorbed, and quietly putting one bead on after another.[4]

 

This may appear to contradict what I said above concerning inspiration; I assure you that she and I are not speaking to divergent ends.

I have been reflecting on the power of inspiration, the charged flash, its force and dynamism. Brenda describes inspiration much differently.

I have been talking about the beginning of inspiration, about the birth of the inspired moment, like the first sharp-sudden intake of breath. Brenda is talking about what comes next...about the care and nurture of the inspired vision.

Brenda is talking about living with inspiration. She is talking about the inspired life, about the falling rain after the clouds-burst and the thunder-claps. She is talking about the importance and the necessity of caring for the gift after its reception. 

The inspired moment may fill us with vision and clarify our purpose, it may do so ecstatically, but nobody (nobody that I know of) can live in that ecstatic state. The ecstasy that follows inspiration is electric; there is so much power in it that if we were to stay in the inspired moment for too long, it would burn us up…it burns us a little every time, but the attempt to remain there would burn us to cinders.

Brenda describes a way of living with inspiration and fulfilling the inspired vision, by regulating its power through habit and ritual and disciplined work, "like stringing beads together in kindergarten," she says; we must allow for some downtime, give our circuitry a break, gives our selves time to reflect on the vision we had received, and grasp its meaning after its light…like the sun, has stopped shining in our eyes.

Having space, being quiet, experiencing emptiness, these are essential to the cultivation of inspiration.

Consider the wisdom of Dorris Lessing:

 

Have you found that space, that empty space, which should surround you when you write? Into that space, which is a form of listening, of attention, will come the words, the words your characters will speak, ideas—inspiration.[5]

 

Like Brenda, Doris is talking about the care for and nurture of inspiration, which intersects in our life through the care for and nurture of the creative-will that resides within us. We nurture the creative-will by exercising it, we exercise it through the expression of the inspired moment and the cultivation of its content.

When seeking inspiration, it is important to be mindful that inspiration has its phases, like the moon, it waxes and wanes, and from time to time is nowhere to be found.

Nobel Laureate, Doris Lessing makes a vital point when she addresses the need to listen, to listen to one’s self.

I have found it far too  easy to listen to the inner critic; that insipid, clamoring voice knows exactly how to get our attention How much more important and life-sustaining is it to listen to our creative voice, to hearken to it music, to care for it like the gardener cares for the tender shoot poking up from the soil before unfurling its fronds.

In order for art to find its expression we must give our creative voice the attention it deserves. We must turn to it rather than to the noisome din of the inner critic, listen pealing, whether it is faint or loud let it be clear.

Brenda Ueland says:

 

I want to write about the great and powerful thing that listening is, and how we forget it. And how we don’t listen…to those we love. And least of all, to those we don’t love. Because listening is a magnetic and strange thing, a creative force.

 

When we are listened to, it creates us, makes us unfold and expand. Ideas actually begin to grow within us and come to life…It makes people happy and free when they are listened to.

 

When we listen to people there is an alternating current, and this recharges us so that we never get tired of each other. Now this little creative fountain is in all. It is the spirit, or the intelligence, or the imagination—whatever you want to call it. If you are tired, strained, have no solitude, run too many errands, talk to too many people, drink too many cocktails, this little fountain is muddied over and covered with a lot of debris. The result is that you stop living from the center…it is when people really listen to us, with quiet fascinated attention, that the little fountain begins to work again, to accelerate in the most surprising ways.[6]

 

Consider these words about listening, about how we feel when we are listened to and relate them to your creativity.

If we can slow down enough to be fascinated with our own ideas, if we can be attentive to our own needs, then we will have found the time to express our creative voice.

If we listen to the stirring of the heart, its murmur will grow into a song; it will become a chorus and a symphony will follow. That force will expand and unfold within us, encompassing our heights and our depths, extending itself throughout our lives, conjoining the natural progression of our peaks and troughs, making them into a singular-unbroken-sequence of waves.

What we have discussed to this point, in this reflection on inspiration, is how to cope with the garden in bloom, how to manage its fecundity, its fruit and its flower.

The garden is the place we love to be when everything is growing-well and going-right. But there are many times in our lives, countless times to be sure, when inspiration strikes and is not received, received and not acted on, or even when acted upon is left unfulfilled.

There are many forces; both within us and without, that are opposed to the power of inspiration. These are the powers of the menial and mundane, the day-to-day duties that obscure our vision, the doubts that disrupt the muse. We sense their power like cold fingers of fear clutching at the heart, tearing at the will, the hard hand that stills inspiration’s voice…like a thunderclap.

The death of inspiration comes through the inner critic, the one who tells us that our work is futile[7], frivolous, and useless, who spreads the debris and clutter to cover the bright and bubbling fountain within us.

Remember, the spirit blows where it wills it reaches everyone…the muses[8] sing to us all.

Whether we think of the force of inspiration as divine, as a gift that comes from without, or as an innate power-inherent to our being, or as our “true self” speaking to us; when the moment comes we must, fit it into our busy lives, or forget about it and let it fade away.

Brenda Ueland says[9] that “the true self is really the Conscience (or God)” not speaking to us about “morality or convention” but daring us to explore the “truth (in ourselves) toward bravery and the greater life.”

When you find that truth, she says, your true self, “and see how gifted you are, you can write as slowly as you want to.” You can let the world be the world, and not let it set you off the course of fulfilling your vision.

The wheel of life will turn, our inspiration will rise with it, if we allow it; we will rise with the turning of the wheel and jump-off it at the apex of the curve, we can lift ourselves to freedom…or, we cling to the wheel as the moment passes, turns around and go down with, pushed into the cold-dark current of futility.

Let me say this…I have been inspired.

I have felt the spirit of inspiration moving within me.

I have been overcome by the hot-flash of a great idea generating within me the deep-desire to act.

I have heard inspiration’s voice speaking slowly, soft and steady. At other times I have heard it fast-talking, loud and demanding.

I have not always listened, but then again, I have not always known how.

The moment of inspiration can be startling.

As awesome as inspiration can be, it is not always delivered by the sublime, the divine and the lovely.

Truth, beauty and goodness are not the only things that catch my attention or make me want to do something. Sometimes I am moved by what is altogether mundane, human and vicious. Sometimes the spark that lights the fire is the experience evil, ugliness and lies. Sometimes I am moved not to stand up, but to take a stand, not to move, but to be unmoving.

When inspiration comes, the heart and the mind must be open. Inspiration to the voice from within and the experience from without, we may be triggered by something we witness, such as the splendor of nature, a grand vista or a shocking event.

Inspiration may come from something small and simple, from a conversation or a question. The moment may come and go in an instant, leaving it to the mediation of our genius or the daemon within us,[10] to make sense of its significance.

There is an encounter that repeats itself in my consciousness, the encounter between my the spirit of inspiration and my sense of futility, by which I mean my doubts about the purpose I feel myself directed toward. This encounter manifests itself as a dialog between my creative self and my inner critic.

For instance, I have been and I am inspired to share with Christians in particular, though with everyone in general, the gospel of Jesus as I understand it, specifically: the good-news to be found in the hope for universal salvation.

My first understanding of this doctrine came out of my own active imagination, a discourse with my daemon, if you will. It came by thinking logically about some of the most basic claims that Christians make about God: 1. that God is love (agape), which means that God is loving; 2. that God is all-powerful (omnipotent), which means that God has the perfect ability to accomplish God’s will; 3. that God is all-knowing (omniscient), which means that God knows us, that God understands us even as we know and understand ourselves; 4. that God is with us (omnipresent), which means that God is not, not-present in any space, that God is with us and wants us to be at-one with the divine from here to eternity.

These claims, which virtually all Christians hold as true, led me to the conclusion that there are no meaningful barriers to God having God’s way in the matter of our salvation.,,even with respect to our free-will.

We must per-force-of-logic hold, that if God truly wills the salvation of all people, which Christian doctrine claims God does, then ipso facto all people will be saved.

My understanding of this argument and its necessary conclusion came to me at the age of fifteen. It came in a flash; it came in a moment of inspiration that was both intuitive and revelatory.

In the ten years that followed I did not do much with this idea, except to use it in the occasional argument I might have with a fundamentalist Christian out preaching on a street corner…which I enjoyed, but ultimately found to be unsatisfying.

In that period there were moments when I was in a debate with another Christian that I would recapture that feeling of inspiration, but not every argument I pursued produced that electrifying sense of purpose that filled me with joy. When I would argue the doctrine with people who could grasp the logic, that feeling of inspiration would ignite inside of me. I would want to linger in the conversation and explore all of its implications, both in terms of human destiny, as well as for the future of Christianity.

However, when my interlocutors could not grasp the logic, I often felt like Sisyphus, endlessly pushing that boulder up-hill. The same words and concepts that might delight me on one occasion, would on another occasion would be a drone in my ears.

Or, even worse for me were the occasions when I found myself talking and talking all night long, enjoying the sound of my voice, exalting in the feelings I got from my partner in dialog, or whoever else might be listening, but walking away at the end of it thinking that I had accomplished nothing more than a stroking of my ego, and feel the shame of self-aggrandizement.

At the age of twenty-five I had begun to organize a research paper for my undergraduate major in theology; I wanted to write about this doctrine, which was still inspiring me. Only now, I had found the motivation to do something with it, to research, to write, to demonstrate the validity of my claims in a formal way.

I was moving beyond the arm-chair and outside of the coffee house, I was getting off the soap box and though I was merely an undergraduate, I felt that I was doing real work in theology.

There was something else happening; I was learning…a lot.

I was encountering more people, specifically, more educated people who were willing to  argue with me, people who could hold up their end much better than the street corner variety of born-again-Christian.

Finally, I was beginning to get a clear sense of theological history and its weight, of the philosophy of Christianity, its institutions, its liturgy as the power behind the traditional Christian doctrine of selective salvation, and so many other exclusionary principles I found  arrayed against my simple logic.

It felt like that lil old ant, who thinks he can move a rubber tree plant. I had high hopes, and those hopes along with the inspired purpose that fueled them, were constantly being assailed by a deepening sense of futility in regard to my purpose or the likelihood of success in my mission.

The question my inner critic asked me was this:

 

Was it possible for me to give a crystal-clear expression of the inherent logic at work in Christian doctrine that confirms the doctrine of universal salvation, and simply by doing that would I be able to change two thousand years of history and practice regarding the pervasive belief in hell and the theology of damnation?

Being honest with myself I had to say that it was possible, (I guess) yes, but likely…no.

The creative spirit within me, my genius, was good at getting the last word, “keep working” it would say, “keep producing, keep arguing…tend to the inspiration, be mindful of it, blowing on the ember to rekindle the flame, keep on keeping on.”

I wrote my senior paper, for my theology major, on the topic of universal salvation; then I doubled down and wrote my senior paper for my philosophy major on the same subject, broadening my research as I went.

By the time I was done I learned that the twentieth century had given the world many extremely capable philosophers and theologians who had been writing about this topic already; they were Oxford Dons, University of Chicago Doctors, and alumni of one storied institution or another.

Their work inspired me to lend my voice to theirs, to carry on the good work, fight the good fight; however…the deeper I dug into the field, the more often I was faced with questions like this:

What is the point?

Why do I care?

If everyone is saved no matter what, why spend time and energy trying to convince people who do not believe, and do not want to believe, that it is true?

If in the end, it does not matter what a person believes or what church they belong to, why even bother with my examination of Christian doctrine?

This was my inner critic seeking to undermine me, attempting to convince me that my work was an exercise in futility, that my pursuit of the question that had inspired me so many years before was meaningless, that I should give up,

When I discovered that I was not the first person to be moved by this question, and not the first to resolve, I realized that I would not be the last person to struggle with it either.

I came to understand that there was little I could do to change the minds of the billions of Christians, Muslims, Jews and others who think and feel differently about our shared spiritual destiny. I found that most mono-theists, whose tradition imagines some form of hell, do not believe that God condemns people to eternal punishment because logic tells them so…they believe it because they want to believe it, because it makes them feel good.

In learning that, I learned how logic by itself will not free people from erroneous beliefs. 

My education was doing three things for me:

 

1.     It was arming me with more evidence, more arguments, more historical knowledge.

2.     It was preparing me with expanded powers to synthesize and communicate those ideas.

3.     At the same time, it was informing me that no matter how great my dialectical powers might become, I would have little power to persuade the hearts and minds of the unwilling.

 

As for the willing…well, they were with me already, and I have never been motivated by the prospect of preaching to the choir.

Pursuing this argument, both formally and institutionally had brought me to the nexus where my inspiration and my sense of futility met, it was where my genius and my inner critic hung out inside my head; I was aware of the danger such an encounter represents, not just for me, but for everyone.

I became mindful of this reality:

 

If I wanted to be true to the movement of the spirit stirring in my heart, I must have the patience to stay with it for a very long time, to quietly listen to its music, to hear in its voice the bubbling of a spring.

 

I have spoken of inspiration as if it came like a flash, like a flare burning or a fire within us, but inspiration is more than that.

Inspiration is more than a vision that brings a small bit of joy, it is more than a quick illumination that brings a fragment of understanding. If inspiration were only that, I would liken the vision to a mirage, its illumination burning as quickly as lime, and the understanding it imparts as superficial as dew in the desert at dawn.

Inspiration, when true, is received as a call to action.

Sometimes what the inspired moment calls us to do can be done quickly.

Other inspired moments call us to rearrange our lives so that we may engage it completely.

Be mindful.

The greater the commitment we are called to make in order to fulfill the inspired purpose, the greater the temptation will be to yield to the inner critic, allowing the inspired moment to fade away by succumbing to the drag of futility.

We cannot escape the voices within us that would have us label our ambitions as exercises in futility. Both the human-will and our treasured imaginings are subject to the entropic principle.

Our inner critic will assert itself for as long as we draw breath, its voice is our voice and it will never relent; therefore we must be in dialogue with it…and here is the thing, if you are dealing honestly with its power, if you grapple with it, you will find renewed inspiration in the struggle.

When I was working out my master’s thesis, and in the years since, I discovered that, none of my good ideas about universal salvation were new...not a single one. Thankfully, I made my discovery early in my research, finding that many philosophers and theologians, both contemporary and classical, had written about the ideas that moved me.

I discovered that in every generation of the Christian Church, since the death of Jesus, in every there were philosophers and theologians, and there were ordinary people teaching and speaking to the same beliefs.

Each new voice I found filled me with a kind of joy. I found comfort in their words as I came to understand my own faith in grace and providence, as an echo of theirs moving forward in time.

They were my sisters and brothers, we were sharing the same in sharing the good news:

 

Believe, not so that you may be saved, rather believe that you are saved already…rejoice!

 

Even though I found joy and camaraderie in these things, slowly and inexorably the weariness would set in, a weariness marked by a resignation that came from the understanding that all of these good people, all of these good thinkers, were like myself…exiles in the Church. We were just a tiny minority within the bigger Christian movement, like a few drops of water set apart from the ocean.

            With the weariness came the temptation to yield to that sense of futility, and there is nothing wrong with that.

If we are like the farmer, who when the harvest is done, reserves some grain for the next planting, then the rest we take will prepare the field for inspiration to blossom again.

The relationship between the spirit of inspiration and powers of futility, given voice by your inner critic works best when it is like a buddy movie, where the two characters do not really get along, like the The Odd Couple, like Felix and Oscar, who are always on each other’s nerves while remaining the best of friends.

At first blush, futility and inspiration seem like they are diametrically opposed, one voice is calling you to action, the other is demanding that you sit down. Each would like to eliminate the other, but they are both a part of what makes us human and the interplay between them should not be conceived as a zero-sum game.

Futility, like drag, will slow us down. Slowing down, even stopping is not always bad; any rest we take may give us the time and space to think through or rethink our approach to the path before us, or the task at hand. Sometimes it is necessary to stop and listen if we are to acquire insight into how we might move ahead with better footing.

Just because our inner critic is a critic does not mean that she or he is wrong.

Remember the wisdom of Brenda Ueland:

 

The creative power is in all of you (us) if you just give it a little time, if you believe in it and watch it come quietly into you; if you do not keep it out by always hurrying and feeling guilty during those times when you should be lazy and happy. Or if you do not keep the creative power away by telling yourself the worst of lies—that you don’t have any.[11]

 

Inspiration, when it is true, and we are true to it, will assert itself continuously through our imagination, the spirit of inspiration will demand its place, find its voice, sometimes startlingly, sometimes quietly.

The spirit of inspiration speaks with your voice, as it speaks to me in mine.

It will lead us out of the swamp, transforming the morass into a verdant wetland, it will cultivate a garden in the light of our best self-expression, we will experience that as fulfillment and its radiance as joy.



[1] The American Heritage Dictionary, Fourth Edition, Inspiration, “1. Stimulation of the mind or the emotions to high level of feeling or activity. 5…Divine guidance or influence exerted directly on the soul of humankind.”

[2] Rollo May, The Courage to Create, p. 103 “Apollo spoke in the first person through Pythia…the god was said to enter her at the very moment of her seizure, or enthusiasm, as the root of that term en-theo (‘in-god’), literally suggests.” W. W. Norton Company, New York, 1975.

[3] Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write, A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit: pp. 149-150. “Blake of course thought the imagination and inspiration (which we all have, as I have said) came from God and through God’s messengers; psychologists tell us it is rooted in the unconscious. But one explanation is as good another. I prefer Blake’s better because it is much easier to understand and more plausible…and remember the word enthusiasm means divine inspiration.” BN publishing, 2008

[4] Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write, A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit: p. 47, BN publishing, 2008

[5] Doris Lessing, Acceptance Speech, Nobel Prize for Literature, 2007.

[6] Brenda Ueland, Tell Me More, Strength to Your Sword Arm, pp. 205-210, Holy Cow! Press, Duluth 1984.

[7] The American Heritage Dictionary, Fourth Edition, Futile, “1. Having no useful result. 2. Trifling, and frivolous; idle.”

[8] The American Heritage Dictionary, Fourth Edition, Muse, “1. Greek Mythology Any of the nine daughters of Mnemosyne and Zeus, each of whom resided over a different art or science. 2. A guiding spirit.”

[9] Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write, A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit: p. 121, BN publishing, 2008

[10] Both the Greeks and the Romans (as well as other ancient civilizations) had a highly developed notion of the duality of human nature. They each believed that our physical selves were accompanied by a spiritual being, coexisting with us on another plane of reality. The Romans called this spiritual counterpart our genius, and the Greeks called it the daemon; from these we get our terms “genius” and “demon.” A preference for Roman culture gave their word a positive connotation, and a pejorative connotation to the Greek cognate. Classical culture not only saw this aspect of ourselves as the point of contact between us and the divine realms, but the Roman word for this also means “begetter.” It is more than the aspect of ourselves that communicates inspiration, it is fundamentally the aspect of ourselves that oversees the production or the carrying our of what we have been inspired to do.

Barry B. Powell, Classical Myth, p. 631, Prentice Hall, New Jersey, 1995.  

[11] Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write, A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit: p. 46, BN publishing, 2008

 


 



Michelangelo de Caravaggio – Artist, Painter, Irreverent Hero

I was a teenager when I discovered Caravaggio.

In 1981, when I was twelve years old and in the seventh grade, I spent a great deal of time skipping school and immersing myself in art. I would wander the halls of the MIA[1], the grand museum in my hometown, but there were no Caravaggio’s there, not in the permanent collection.

I discover the renaissance and late renaissance masters without him. And so, five years later when I did encounter the great Michaelangelo de Caravaggio, it was at the Uptown Theatre on Hennepin Avenue, my neighborhood “art-house” cinema. I was introduced to him through a film by Derek Jarman, starring Nigel Terry, Tilda Swinton and Sean Bean; it captured a great deal of his story, including the character of his life and his irreverent nature…which endeared me to him, it was only then that I became aware of his revolutionary work and extraordinary influence.

The 1986 film titled: Caravaggio was lovely and somewhat surreal, it familiarized me with Caravaggio’s significance to the history of painting, his foremost achievement being the mastery of foreshortening, a technique which allowed his images to leap from the canvass with the illusion of three dimensionality; and then there was his development of the chiaroscuro, the raw power and beauty of bringing light from the darkness which was his signature style.

In 1990 I stood in front of a Caravaggio canvas for the first time. I was in the Navy at the time and on weekend liberty while I was attending Hospital Corps School at the Great Lakes Naval Training Center just north of the city; standing in front of the giant canvas, titled of Mars whipping Cupid, I was stunned and amazed at the dramatic realism in his work.

From that point forward if somebody were to ask me who my favorite painter is, I would say Caravaggio, without hesitation. The more I learned about this masterful artist the more this remained true.

Five years later I was taking a course in art history as an undergraduate at the University of Saint Thomas, in St. Paul, Minnesota; it was then that I discovered what an anti-establishment hero he was, and because of that spirit within him, even more than his skill as an artist, I consider him a person of heroic stature.

As an Italian painter artist his principle patron was the Church, and the most common subjects he was commissioned to paint were scenes of religious devotion, but…he was imprisoned for his depiction of The Death of the Virgin, because he used the bloating corpse of a prostitute, which  he had taken from the river, as his model. He painted Mary as his model lay, in a state of corruption and decay, which was an act of heresy in his day, because the church taught that Mary was inviolate and incorruptible…even in death.

When he was commissioned to paint the Conversion of Saint Paul, he devoted seventy-five percent of the canvass to the ass of the horse Paul fell from when he was blinded by God while on the road to Damascus…another great joke Caravaggio played on his patron, a heroic gesture, for which he is now well loved.





[1] Minneapolis Institute of Arts

Sunday, July 14, 2024

A Homily – The Fifteenth Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year B)

First Reading – Amos 7:12-15

Responsorial Psalm – Psalm 84(85):9-14

Second Reading – Ephesians 1:3-14

Gospel Acclamation – John 6:63,68

Alternative Acclamation – Ephesians 1:17,18

The Gospel According to Mark 6:7-13 ©

 

(NJB)              

 

Listen!

 We do not serve God, the creator of the universe; we do not serve from fear of judgement. Serve from a place of love.

 Remember.

 All things belong to God: all lands, all seas, all planets, all stars, all galaxies; everything and everyone that is in them.

 Know this.

 God did deliver the Israelites from captivity, they delivered themselves.

 Be mindful…

 This is not hubris; it is greater hubris to think that God loves one group of people, a special people, above all others. It is far greater hubris to think that than to think that the Israelites escaped bondage under their own power.

 God will not rescue us from the plight and misery of this world; that is for us to do for ourselves or for us to do for each other. God does not intervene in our affairs, not because God is angry or indignant with us, but because God made us and the whole of creation free.

 God is the God of all people, whether we know it or not, nothing can alter this fundamental reality. Before the world was made God chose everyone, desiring that we live our lives in loving service to one another as a reflection of our commitment to the divine.

 We are the children of God, every-last-one-of-us, not children by adoption, we are born into this heritage.

 Know this.

 We are not forgiven for our many sins by rituals of blood-magic; we were forgiven for all of our crimes before the first moment of creation; God knew us then, and knew what we would do with our freedom, and in spite of all the harm we do to ourselves, to one another, and to the world itself, God called the creation good.

 God’s plan for the salvation of the world is not a mystery, it is an open secret, it only requires that you believe it to take strength from it, and that is the essence of faith.

 All things and beings exist within God’s Word, the Logos which is God’s own self; we bear a seed of the Word within us, the divine spark that animates us and gives us life, installed within us by God’s own breath, the divine spirit enlivens us and by which we share in the eternality of the creator.

 Consider for a moment when and where the early church began to stray from the simplicity of Jesus’ teaching, and the lived experience of the way.

 Peter would have us believe that he followed Jesus because Jesus had the secret of eternal life, as if this were the purpose of the gospel, as if “believing” that Jesus is the “Holy One of God” is the key to receiving the gift of eternal life.

 We are asked to believe that God parcels out access to Jesus and life everlasting, allowing some to come to it while refusing others according to some hidden purpose.

 This scheme is not true.

 The gospel is this: God loves you and you are saved.

 You are not saved for anything that you have done; you did not earn it. You are saved because God loves you, and for no other reason.

 The promise of salvation is not that you will be spared from suffering and torment in hell, or that when you are judged God will forgive you.

 God has already forgiven you. You are already saved.

 Believe it!

 God has prepared you and everyone for eternal life. Let the goodness of the promise flow through you now and start living according to this promise as if you knew it was true.

 We are not called to believe in the idea that Jesus is this or that, the Holy One of God, we are called to act on the principles of his faith, to live lives of charity and service to one another each other…this is the way.

 Remember Jesus, and God whom he called Father

 Is God glorious? Certainly. God is the creator of the universe, and yet God desire more than any other glory to be in a relationship with us as a loving parent.

 It is right to hope that each and every one of us comes to the full knowledge of God, this is the divine plan and it is right to hope in it. There is hope in this knowledge, hope for ourselves that we are called on to extend to everyone; even those we do not know and do not love…this is the way.

 If you teach that God has promised us riches and glories as the inheritance of the saints, remember this: the first will be last and the last will be first, and that spiritual riches are not counted in gold and silver and precious things.

 Consider the Gospel reading for today, it informs us about the ethos and ethics of the early church, weaving a little bit of mythology into the narrative, which the Gospel writers use to bolster their claim to an authority over the church which they were desperate to have.

 At the time Mark’s gospel was written the church had just recently been dealt a serious blow by the Romans who had sacked Jerusalem, destroyed the temple, and forced the people into exile.

 These events make it understandable that the leaders of the church would be motivated to claim an authority that was not their due. They were attempting to hold the people together out of a desire to protect the institution they were building.

 Therefore they instructed their missionaries to not waste any time; if people would not listen, they were to shake the dust off their sandals and move along…this was a simple injunction.

 We understand the desire to wrap the deeds of the disciples in a cloak of mystery and miracle, it makes for good story-telling. In this way their narrative extends the theme of miracle working which had already been applied to Jesus’ life, to his closest followers, thereby establishing a continuity of supernatural-power, never mind the fact that none of it was true.

 Remember.

 God is a God of law and order, not a God of miracles, magic and wonders; God does not play for an audience.

 Pay attention to the concrete thing in the reading for today:

 The Followers of Christ are taught to embrace poverty, they are ordered to take nothing with them on their journey, no money…not a thing that they do not need.

 Their mission is to preach the gospel; they are not meant to profit from it.

 All teachers of the faith should be humble enough to live this way.

 

First Reading – Amos 7:12-15

'Go, Shepherd, and Prophesy to My People Israel'

Amaziah, the priest of Bethel, said to Amos, ‘Go away, seer;’ get back to the land of Judah; earn your bread there, do your prophesying there. We want no more prophesying in Bethel; this is the royal sanctuary, the national temple.’ ‘I was no prophet, neither did I belong to any of the brotherhoods of prophets,’ Amos replied to Amaziah ‘I was a shepherd, and looked after sycamores: but it was the Lord who took me from herding the flock, and the Lord who said, “Go, prophesy to my people Israel.”’

 

Responsorial Psalm – Psalm 84(85):9-14

Our Salvation is Very Near

Alleluia

Lord, you blessed your land; you forgave the guilt of your people.

You looked kindly, O Lord, on your land:

  you ended the captivity of Jacob.

You forgave your people’s unrighteousness

  and covered over their sins.

You reined back all of your anger

  and renounced your indignant fury.

Rescue us, God, our saviour,

  and turn your anger away from us.

Do not be angry for ever

 – or will you let your wrath last from one generation to the next?

Surely you will turn round and give us life

 – so that your people can rejoice in you?

Show us, Lord, your kindness

  and give us your salvation.

I will listen to whatever the Lord God tells me,

  for he will speak peace to his people and his chosen ones,

  and to those who repent in their hearts.

Truly his salvation is close to those who fear him,

  so that glory may dwell in our land.

Kindness and faithfulness have met together,

  justice and peace have kissed.

Faithfulness has sprung from the earth,

  and justice has looked down from heaven.

Truly the Lord will give generously,

  and our land will be fruitful.

Justice will walk before him

  and place its footsteps on his path.

Alleluia

 

Second Reading – Ephesians 1:3-14

God Chose Us in Christ Before the World Was Made

Blessed be God the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with all the spiritual blessings of heaven in Christ.

Before the world was made, he chose us, chose us in Christ, to be holy and spotless, and to live through love in his presence, determining that we should become his adopted sons, through Jesus Christ for his own kind purposes, to make us praise the glory of his grace, his free gift to us in the Beloved, in whom, through his blood, we gain our freedom, the forgiveness of our sins.

Such is the richness of the grace which he has showered on us in all wisdom and insight.

He has let us know the mystery of his purpose, the hidden plan he so kindly made in Christ from the beginning to act upon when the times had run their course to the end:

that he would bring everything together under Christ, as head, everything in the heavens and everything on earth.

And it is in him that we were claimed as God’s own, chosen from the beginning, under the predetermined plan of the one who guides all things as he decides by his own will; chosen to be,

for his greater glory, the people who would put their hopes in Christ before he came.

Now you too, in him, have heard the message of the truth and the good news of your salvation,  and have believed it; and you too have been stamped with the seal of the Holy Spirit of the Promise, the pledge of our inheritance which brings freedom for those whom God has taken for his own, to make his glory praised.

 

Gospel Acclamation – John 6:63,68

Alleluia, alleluia!

Your words are spirit, Lord, and they are life; you have the message of eternal life.

Alleluia!

 

Alternative Acclamation – Ephesians 1:17,18

Alleluia, alleluia!

May the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ enlighten the eyes of our mind, so that we can see what hope his call holds for us.

Alleluia!

 

The Gospel According to Mark 6:7-13 ©

'Take Nothing with You'

Jesus made a tour round the villages, teaching. Then he summoned the Twelve and began to send them out in pairs giving them authority over the unclean spirits. And he instructed them to take nothing for the journey except a staff – no bread, no haversack, no coppers for their purses. They were to wear sandals but, he added, ‘Do not take a spare tunic.’ And he said to them, ‘If you enter a house anywhere, stay there until you leave the district. And if any place does not welcome you and people refuse to listen to you, as you walk away shake off the dust from under your feet as a sign to them.’ So they set off to preach repentance; and they cast out many devils, and anointed many sick people with oil and cured them.

 

A Homily – The Fifteenth Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year B)




Thursday, July 11, 2024

The Feast of Saint Benedict

I earned my first Master’s Degree at Saint John’s University in Collegeville, Minnesota. The year was 2001.

Collegeville is the home of Saint John’s Abbey, named for John the Baptist, and it is the largest Benedictine congregation in the world. I studied Church History and Systematics at the School of Theology there.

Saint John’s Abbey was home to Godfrey Dieckmann, the monk who headed a liturgical reform movement that in the early to mid-twentieth century had significant influence on the Second Vatican Council and the future history of the entire Church. It changed the way Catholics celebrate the mass, the language it is conducted in, the music we sing, and in some cases even the bread we share at the eucharistic feast. These reforms were guided by the study of patristics, they represented a return to the practices of the earliest Christians, going all the way back to the Ante-Nicene and apostolic era.

While I was at Saint John’s I taught world religions at the preparatory school, I wrote my master’s thesis on the topic of universal salvation, its reasonableness and historical authenticity[1]. My work was also rooted in the Ante-Nicene world, in the theology of St. Irenaeus of Lyons, it challenged the theology of the Imperial Church and found support in other theologians from the early to mid-twentieth century, who like Dieckmann were interested in returning the church to its foundations in the way, that was taught by Jesus Christ.

My work was well received by my students, my peers and professors.

While at the School of Theology I took courses on medieval and monastic history, on monastic spirituality and one course specifically related to the Rule of Saint Benedict, from which I have taken a phrase that I use most often in my ongoing theological work.

Obsculta!

 It is the first word in Benedict’s Rule, written in Latin…it means, It is in the imperative mood, it is the command to listen.

 I use this word interchangeably with: be mindful, know this, understand and remember.

 Today we celebrate the feast of Saint Benedict, who purportedly lived between the late fifth-century and the mid sixth-century CE.

 Be mindful.

 What we know of the life of Saint Benedict comes mostly from the writing of Saint Pope Gregory the First, otherwise known as Gregory the Great. What Gregory wrote is not exactly a biography but rather a reflection on the idealized life of an abbot, most of which is a fiction written c. 593 CE.

 Benedict, whether real or imagined, produced a Rule (a guide for community living) that became the foundation of western monasticism. His rule enjoins the monk to a life of poverty, chastity and obedience, a commitment to work and to a studious-meditative reflection on the psalms…among other things.

 The life of Benedict, and the writing attributed to him has influenced the lives of thousands upon millions of people. Monks under his rule built the university where I earned the title of theologian, where I honed my skills as a historian and philosopher, where I proved my thesis that we may have faith in the salvation of all people, simply on the basis that God desires all people to be saved, it where I became a member of the magisterium of the Catholic Church and I am grateful for that.


[1] RHADUS: the Reasonableness and Historical Authenticity of the Doctrine of Universal Salvation

Tuesday, July 9, 2024

Observation - July 9th, 2024, Tuesday

the clouds are tall and filled with rain

the sky is multilayered in shades of gray

sunlight streaming through blue patches

closing above the greenway

cool water falling as the train rolls by

the air is perfumed with clover and sage

red-sumac and goldenrod waving

grasshopper leads me up the stairs

to cross Hiawatha over the Sabo bridge